I don't know...
[Her voice is small and shaky and she forces some composure back into herself. She takes a deep breath, drawing back from the hug. Her face is still pale, eyes wet and red rimmed, and she searches his face, now haunted by the similarities she had seen between him and his father and wondering how she can separate the two.
She should hate Vergil. He's a monster. She's everything she'd been raised to believe as evil and base in this world.
But he's the Son of Sparda, Nero's father and he loves him and she's sworn to herself never to hate any part of him, that she loves and accepts every inch of him, every drop of blood in his veins, demon, human, whatever.
She reaches for Nero, her rock, and takes his face between her hands.]
I wanted whatever hurt you dead. I wanted to rip it to pieces just so it could hurt worse than you, hurt the way I hurt when I saw you lying there... and he was your father?
[She shudders, tears rolling down her cheeks.]
How could you forgive someone like that after what he did to you?
[Her voice is small and shaky and she forces some composure back into herself. She takes a deep breath, drawing back from the hug. Her face is still pale, eyes wet and red rimmed, and she searches his face, now haunted by the similarities she had seen between him and his father and wondering how she can separate the two.
She should hate Vergil. He's a monster. She's everything she'd been raised to believe as evil and base in this world.
But he's the Son of Sparda, Nero's father and he loves him and she's sworn to herself never to hate any part of him, that she loves and accepts every inch of him, every drop of blood in his veins, demon, human, whatever.
She reaches for Nero, her rock, and takes his face between her hands.]
I wanted whatever hurt you dead. I wanted to rip it to pieces just so it could hurt worse than you, hurt the way I hurt when I saw you lying there... and he was your father?
[She shudders, tears rolling down her cheeks.]
How could you forgive someone like that after what he did to you?
[How anyone, anyone could ever have looked at this brilliant, beautiful man and ever thought he was nothing more than an uncouth, foul-mouthed punk is completely beyond Kyrie. His huge capacity to love, to forgive, to want what's best for everyone, humbles her every time she's privileged enough to bear witness to it.
She leans into the brush of his thumb, shares breath as he presses his forehead to hers, listens patiently as he articulates his thoughts. He's come so, so far and she loves him so deeply as he shows his capacity for forgiveness.
Kyrie thinks he's a better man than any other she's met. She might be biased, but it doesn't make it any less true.
She looks up to meet his crooked smile, her own smile watery in return as she watches him wipe away his tears, and she slowly processes what he's saying.
Vergil wants to apologize to her.
With all her heart, she wishes she could say she will accept that apology for Nero's sake and let that be the end of it. Be the bigger person, follow Nero's example and let their lives go on, embracing him as part of her family, learning to forgive and forget.
She just doesn't know if she can.
But she can't bring herself to say that to Nero. Not when she can see for herself how much this man- and it's a struggle to use that term- means to him. How much Nero loves him, even if he hasn't said it aloud to her. She knows what he cut himself off from saying.
Maybe she's not as good a person as everyone says she is.
Her thumbs trace the path of his hands, brushing the remnants of tears away that he might have missed. She's sure the uncertainty of it is written all over her face but she can't bring herself to look away from him, not when he's being so open and vulnerable with her.]
I don't know if I- I will hear what he has to say.
[I just can't promise I'll forgive him.
She inches closer, needing to be near to him. Those days leading up to his second departure for Red Grave had been tense and fraught, with her still simmering with anger and terror at the thought he was about to disappear and put his life in danger again and Nero thrumming with fury and grim determination to finish what he had started. They had barely spoken, it wasn't until the night before he left that Kyrie had left the self-imposed exile of the sofa-bed to return to their room and hold him, determined not to let him leave thinking she didn't care.
It's caring too much that has her tied up in knots right now.]
I still see you on that floor and I can't- I wake up and I can't breathe thinking I've lost you before I remember you're okay.
She leans into the brush of his thumb, shares breath as he presses his forehead to hers, listens patiently as he articulates his thoughts. He's come so, so far and she loves him so deeply as he shows his capacity for forgiveness.
Kyrie thinks he's a better man than any other she's met. She might be biased, but it doesn't make it any less true.
She looks up to meet his crooked smile, her own smile watery in return as she watches him wipe away his tears, and she slowly processes what he's saying.
Vergil wants to apologize to her.
With all her heart, she wishes she could say she will accept that apology for Nero's sake and let that be the end of it. Be the bigger person, follow Nero's example and let their lives go on, embracing him as part of her family, learning to forgive and forget.
She just doesn't know if she can.
But she can't bring herself to say that to Nero. Not when she can see for herself how much this man- and it's a struggle to use that term- means to him. How much Nero loves him, even if he hasn't said it aloud to her. She knows what he cut himself off from saying.
Maybe she's not as good a person as everyone says she is.
Her thumbs trace the path of his hands, brushing the remnants of tears away that he might have missed. She's sure the uncertainty of it is written all over her face but she can't bring herself to look away from him, not when he's being so open and vulnerable with her.]
I don't know if I- I will hear what he has to say.
[I just can't promise I'll forgive him.
She inches closer, needing to be near to him. Those days leading up to his second departure for Red Grave had been tense and fraught, with her still simmering with anger and terror at the thought he was about to disappear and put his life in danger again and Nero thrumming with fury and grim determination to finish what he had started. They had barely spoken, it wasn't until the night before he left that Kyrie had left the self-imposed exile of the sofa-bed to return to their room and hold him, determined not to let him leave thinking she didn't care.
It's caring too much that has her tied up in knots right now.]
I still see you on that floor and I can't- I wake up and I can't breathe thinking I've lost you before I remember you're okay.
I love you too. So much.
[Kyrie's eyes close as she leans into him, letting a shaky breath tremble free. She shivers as he mumbles in her ear and turns to face him, hesitating for just a moment to speak against his lips, he's that close.]
Just be here with me with me now. As long as I know you're safe, that's all I need.
[She knows she needs to make a decision, knows that Nero needs to be put at ease, but she can't think straight. She's so tired she realizes; tired of putting on a brave face, tired of holding herself together, tired of missing him. She leans in, brushing her nose against his as she closes her eyes and rests her forehead against his.]
I don't trust myself to decide anything tonight... I just want to be with you. You don't know how much I've missed you.
[Kyrie's eyes close as she leans into him, letting a shaky breath tremble free. She shivers as he mumbles in her ear and turns to face him, hesitating for just a moment to speak against his lips, he's that close.]
Just be here with me with me now. As long as I know you're safe, that's all I need.
[She knows she needs to make a decision, knows that Nero needs to be put at ease, but she can't think straight. She's so tired she realizes; tired of putting on a brave face, tired of holding herself together, tired of missing him. She leans in, brushing her nose against his as she closes her eyes and rests her forehead against his.]
I don't trust myself to decide anything tonight... I just want to be with you. You don't know how much I've missed you.
[The kiss is just what she needs and yet not enough, sweet and reassuring and enough to set her heart racing. She reaches to cup his cheek, smiling sweetly.]
Don't apologize, it needed to be said. Thank you for telling me everything.
[Forewarned is forearmed. It's been a lot to contend with, that much is for sure, but secrets never sit well, and they've always made it a point to be honest with each other. That won't change, not as long as they're together. And while they're being honest...]
Oh you can't have missed me more than I've missed you, but I suppose it has been longer for you than for me.
Don't apologize, it needed to be said. Thank you for telling me everything.
[Forewarned is forearmed. It's been a lot to contend with, that much is for sure, but secrets never sit well, and they've always made it a point to be honest with each other. That won't change, not as long as they're together. And while they're being honest...]
Oh you can't have missed me more than I've missed you, but I suppose it has been longer for you than for me.
[Kyrie colors up, as she always does when he's so ardent and sweet with his compliments and loops her arms around his neck over his shoulders, shifting her body weight until she's sitting on his lap. She feels so self-conscious when he calls her beautiful, even when she's wearing his borrowed clothes and her hair's a half-dry tangle.]
It's not a dream, I promise. I'm here.
[She takes the initiative and saves him a steal, freely offering him a sweet, lingering kiss.]
And I'm not going anywhere.
It's not a dream, I promise. I'm here.
[She takes the initiative and saves him a steal, freely offering him a sweet, lingering kiss.]
And I'm not going anywhere.
Always.
[She manages to sigh out her response before Nero goes in for a deeper kiss and she moans into his mouth as she tastes his tongue with hers. She is all too aware of how long it's been as her temperature goes up like touchpaper and she's aware of everywhere he's touching her and everywhere he's not.
And it's not enough.
One kiss melts into another, and another, and she laughs against his lips.]
Wait- is this okay?
[She manages to sigh out her response before Nero goes in for a deeper kiss and she moans into his mouth as she tastes his tongue with hers. She is all too aware of how long it's been as her temperature goes up like touchpaper and she's aware of everywhere he's touching her and everywhere he's not.
And it's not enough.
One kiss melts into another, and another, and she laughs against his lips.]
Wait- is this okay?
[She really, really hates that she has to ask this and break the mood, particularly when he looks so utterly adorable when he's befuddled like this, but Kyrie is mindful that Nero hasn't been living alone, and is even more mindful of who he's living with.]
This is your father's house.
This is your father's house.
['I'll be quiet' he says.
Kyrie gives him a skeptical look before she laughs and drops her forehead to his bright red collarbone, shaking with amusement.]
No you won't! You don't know how.
[And, truth be told, she wouldn't want him to be, not tonight.
...she's not exactly quiet either. Sopranos tend to be full-throated at the best of times.
She kisses his throat apologetically.]
What should we do?
Kyrie gives him a skeptical look before she laughs and drops her forehead to his bright red collarbone, shaking with amusement.]
No you won't! You don't know how.
[And, truth be told, she wouldn't want him to be, not tonight.
...she's not exactly quiet either. Sopranos tend to be full-throated at the best of times.
She kisses his throat apologetically.]
What should we do?
[Kyrie kneels up on the bed, mindfully trying to push down her eagerness as she waits for him to return. It would be too cruel for them to be reunited only for them to be kept apart by circumstance at the last moment.
So when Nero returns with relief painted all over his face, it spreads to Kyrie almost immediately as she jumps from the bed and rushes straight to him.]
Oh thank your grandfather.
[She is 100% teasing him and laughs accordingly as she jumps into his arms.]
So when Nero returns with relief painted all over his face, it spreads to Kyrie almost immediately as she jumps from the bed and rushes straight to him.]
Oh thank your grandfather.
[She is 100% teasing him and laughs accordingly as she jumps into his arms.]
[Kyrie can't stop laughing at his face, just as she had hoped. She kisses him back, refusing to let go of him as he drops her back onto the bed and tries to drag him down on top of her.]
Oh no, you're the only one I'm planning on praising tonight.
[Begone shirt, you have no place here. She tosses it away, over towards her discarded towel, and lets her palms rove over his torso as she shifts beneath him to get more comfortable.]
Oh no, you're the only one I'm planning on praising tonight.
[Begone shirt, you have no place here. She tosses it away, over towards her discarded towel, and lets her palms rove over his torso as she shifts beneath him to get more comfortable.]
The silence gets filled, in V's mind, with Griffon's unhelpful chatter. Fortunately, V's gotten good at making no outward reaction to the bird's histrionics. Internally, unfortunately, is another matter and one Griffon gets a sense of, if not those around him. It's distracting, however, from how much dead air stands between V's suggestion and Nero's response, so that his anxiety has not entirely spiked when the boy speaks.
On the one hand, Nero implicitly agrees to spend time with V. On the other hand, it says nothing about the specific offer. V's not especially tied to the idea of an arcade, so it's overall a win. Nero talking with him and continuing to talk with him after what conversations they need to have is the real victory. Not that V would have softballed any challenges in the arcade to let Nero win in order to curry favor. No, any victory would be earned fairly. The same as it feels this win is.
V reads a little poetry while Nero gets his things and closes the book, tucking it away, as the door opens. Since all he sees different is the jacket, V supposes Nero likely checked on his patients and made sure they were ready to brave the world for a short span on their own without anyone caring for them. Knowing the Sparda twins, they would manage no matter what, but as Nero plays babysitter and nursemaid, perhaps not to his satisfaction.
He nods and starts walking... no direction in particular. As much as this part of Epiphany is his most explored, V has no destination in mind. Perhaps not Catfe, as he's already spent hours there today, but that's hardly direction. "There was a great deal we did not have time to speak of while making our way through the qliphoth tree," V comments, "It would do us both good to talk."
Vergil's summary of the rest of that day did not cover Nero's arm regrowing, perhaps not important a topic, but more to the point, there's how V treated Nero. It's not the relationship he wants with Nero now. "If there's any topic you most want to discuss, we can talk about it first."
On the one hand, Nero implicitly agrees to spend time with V. On the other hand, it says nothing about the specific offer. V's not especially tied to the idea of an arcade, so it's overall a win. Nero talking with him and continuing to talk with him after what conversations they need to have is the real victory. Not that V would have softballed any challenges in the arcade to let Nero win in order to curry favor. No, any victory would be earned fairly. The same as it feels this win is.
V reads a little poetry while Nero gets his things and closes the book, tucking it away, as the door opens. Since all he sees different is the jacket, V supposes Nero likely checked on his patients and made sure they were ready to brave the world for a short span on their own without anyone caring for them. Knowing the Sparda twins, they would manage no matter what, but as Nero plays babysitter and nursemaid, perhaps not to his satisfaction.
He nods and starts walking... no direction in particular. As much as this part of Epiphany is his most explored, V has no destination in mind. Perhaps not Catfe, as he's already spent hours there today, but that's hardly direction. "There was a great deal we did not have time to speak of while making our way through the qliphoth tree," V comments, "It would do us both good to talk."
Vergil's summary of the rest of that day did not cover Nero's arm regrowing, perhaps not important a topic, but more to the point, there's how V treated Nero. It's not the relationship he wants with Nero now. "If there's any topic you most want to discuss, we can talk about it first."
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