[As long as she's crying, he won't be far behind. He surrenders his face to her, tearstained and red, shaking his head very briefly to her question.]
I don't know. I didn't think I could. I wanted payback. Not just for my arm but for everything he did to you and Nico. To Dante. To the city. I wanted nothing more than to kill him. But...
[He drifts off for a moment, scrambling to gather a hundred thoughts and feelings into sensible words. His right hand slips up to brush Kyrie's tears away with his thumb.]
When I found out he was my father, I just... like I said. I had to see for myself. I didn't want him to die without ever looking him in the eye and speaking to him. Maybe he was a coldhearted bastard and a ruthless monster, and maybe he did deserve to die but...
[One more swallow, and he comes to the conclusion he came to all those months ago after hanging up with Kyrie.] I didn't want it to be like that. I didn't want my father to be like that. For Dante to kill his brother, and for my family I didn't even know to fall apart like that.
[He takes a slow breath and leans forward, touching his forehead to hers.]
All I did was give him a chance. If he'd spit in my face or thrown it back at me, or acted like a [pause where he trips over almost saying "fuckhead"] creep or whatever else, then screw him, I'd know once and for all. But he didn't. He's tried so hard and apologized, and... I forgave him for hurting me.
[Nero smiles a little crookedly, then spares his hand to wipe his own tears.]
I can't forgive him for you. Or for anybody else or anything else he's done. But for what it's worth, he's said he wants to apologize to you.
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I don't know. I didn't think I could. I wanted payback. Not just for my arm but for everything he did to you and Nico. To Dante. To the city. I wanted nothing more than to kill him. But...
[He drifts off for a moment, scrambling to gather a hundred thoughts and feelings into sensible words. His right hand slips up to brush Kyrie's tears away with his thumb.]
When I found out he was my father, I just... like I said. I had to see for myself. I didn't want him to die without ever looking him in the eye and speaking to him. Maybe he was a coldhearted bastard and a ruthless monster, and maybe he did deserve to die but...
[One more swallow, and he comes to the conclusion he came to all those months ago after hanging up with Kyrie.] I didn't want it to be like that. I didn't want my father to be like that. For Dante to kill his brother, and for my family I didn't even know to fall apart like that.
[He takes a slow breath and leans forward, touching his forehead to hers.]
All I did was give him a chance. If he'd spit in my face or thrown it back at me, or acted like a [pause where he trips over almost saying "fuckhead"] creep or whatever else, then screw him, I'd know once and for all. But he didn't. He's tried so hard and apologized, and... I forgave him for hurting me.
[Nero smiles a little crookedly, then spares his hand to wipe his own tears.]
I can't forgive him for you. Or for anybody else or anything else he's done. But for what it's worth, he's said he wants to apologize to you.